Monday, March 28

Eat my flesh, watch me die


Woke up, blinked a couple of times until the nightly blur had disappeared from my eyes. Like dry lenses last nights smoke covers my pupils, it's a fog uneasy to clear. Next to me lays the girl with magic eyes. The one that makes me sleep. Fully dressed unlike me. I shyly cover my bruised chest with crisp white sheets and with much grace (or so it seems, but then again Im still drunk) make my way to the window. I grab the half full champagne bottle and empty it in three gulps. I almost choke trying not to cough. Light a cigarett, slowly inhale, stop, exhale while watching her eyelids vibrate. She sleeps so intensely, I bet she's dreaming.

Five cigarettes later, I still can't stop looking at her. This is what she does for a living. I pay her to do what I now can't stop doing. I watch, and then just before she wakes up I break down in tears.

She stayed with me the entire night. She fell asleep next to me.
She's my Helen of Troy, my Ansgar.
My hero.

14 comments:

Caroline said...

Who's he? Hot!!!

ralph young said...

Belle, Im jealous. How come he makes you smile like that?

A said...

Are you guys high? B, you look high. Ive never seen you smile like that, NEVER. Call me, will you? Im worried.

Lindsay said...

are you really 18? i am worried hun, deeply worried how you will look and be like when you are 30.
Please take a step back if any of this is true. its not glamorous its desperate.

Belle Armed said...

Well, dear Lindsay - who the fuck decided that life should be glamorous?

Paola. said...

i like your blog! i follow you:)
xx

Isquisofrenia said...

im so jealous i want that shirt!! so bad!!

It blog girls said...

This picture is WAY tooo coool

Anonymous said...

The detective says; that is an old photo. She has to put up a front because her back is exposed. She is crashing the illusions into reality.

margg. said...

so much love, for you.

lets just go away.
xo

Christopher said...

I love walking when I'm the right kind of drunk. Especially if I'm walking into a cool place with good music, makes me feel like I'm in a movie.

mais said...

you're reading Malady of Death, aren't you? i see it in you and it's lovely.
xx x

Ophelia said...

ooo adored the little birds and
dead girls post - it's an echo
for me.

yea, i don't read posts in order
like most people and your blog
is madly interesting

Anonymous said...

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