Friday, March 19

She comes bearing gifts and love

found at thefashon

Amanda arrived, making this lalaland a little more like home. we had some coffee at Intelli and it felt fantastic to have someone I don't need whole sentences with to make myself clear. She gets it by looking at me, and my chewed down nails. You don't get any sleep , darling? Put two Propavan in my hand, for emergency only. Like a saint with advanced smuggling skills. She told me about her dance around the fire, the model ex boyfriend that is. Or just boyfriend, he she nor I know. But does anyone ever really know? We use words, definitions, but actions often speaks against it. Like the way someone flinch with their hand when you touch them. It's more of a knifestab in the gut than any outspoken words I know. Hurts more then being left behind in the remains of a past that wasn't so perfect as you imagened. Ruins of something that's decaying, and smells rutten but you still stay, because pain is better than nothing at all. As long as there's pain there's hope.

I would rather burst into flames than dance around that fire ever again. That's the one thing I'm certain of.

17 comments:

sanchez said...

"I would rather burst into flames than dance around that fire ever again"

I don't think you realise how beautiful that sounds to me.

JenniAsh said...

'I would rather burst into flames than dance around that fire ever again. That's the one thing I'm certain of.'
Such a poignant line... I like this post. :)

Caplyst said...

pain is better than nothing...I know alot of people who live by the credo. I may be one of them.

You are gorgeous.

Oh and I would read you Hemmingway, with a glass of Heitz. I know I said french wine but I love Napa Cabs.

Fashion Chalet said...

Amazing photo. Creepy yet cool.

I like the blog! :)




xx

Riff Dog said...

You really do write this so well.

If Amanda needs some new drum sticks, I have some here.

Yofany said...

nice words!


anyway,mind to exchange link?
huelicious

juicy j said...

creeeppy picturee, but i like it girl
cool blog.<3

zachary said...

Oh my i'm floored by your words!
You are a very talented writer:)
So much depth, yet so simple and sharp it cuts through like a knife..
I love this kind of writing.

xx

PinkBow said...

strong words...

Krislyn said...

cutting words. the photo just provokes you. "it's more of a knifestab in the gut than any outspoken words i know" - love this line.

apparellel said...

amanda sounds like a perfect friend.

it's the "dancing around the fire" that makes me so happy that i'm not single anymore. not that being married doesn't have it's own set of problems, but ugh.

have a fabulous weekend love.

xxx
t

Susan said...

love that last sentence so much...
xoxo

s + b said...

you are so talented. that photo is haunting

Joellen said...

A sant with advanced smuggling skills...

I love it!

joellenlove.blogspot.com

LA said...

This post is very good, and pic cool

Like your blog!






LA

Isquisofrenia said...

i love skulls!!!
awesome photo find
yeah im guessng that she exaggerates a bit for the show!

Anise said...

"hurts more then being left behind in the remains of a past that wasn't so perfect as you imagined."

this is EXACTLY me right now,

xx x