Friday, December 31

Lets cry it out

Another year, a lot of lonely days. Some in the most loving company there is. Miri held my hands in Camden a couple of nights a go J D Salinger died this year ya know. We drank mai tais until our vision was blurry enough, and then we loved each other a little bit more. Sisters by heart, connected through sorrow and guilt. We know the secret, we just cant deal with it. We dont know how to handle it. We're no good at protecting the light (We always seem to blow it out)

Father figure Frank wrote a letter, the second one Ive received during these nineteen years.
He promises that 2011 will be different 1) I'll talk to Belle 2) I wont leave if you ask me not to

I promise that 2011 will be a year when I 1) Start drinking earlier in the morning 2) Write letters, long ones. Let me know if you want one darlings.

J D Salinger died this year. But we'll always have catcher in the rye.


Loulou said...

Thank YOU, Beauty!
i still haven't figured out the right amount of alcohol at the right time of the day, but I'll try my best. I 'll also give smoking another chance, still haven’t accustomed to the taste, but there’s is always tomorrow. We ‘ll always have words and songs, we know. I’m hiding accompanied by fry and elliot smith and hope that you will wish for something. It always happens. So if I could, I’d give you wishes. You own beauty already. And fathers, oh! I miss mine. Present or absent they always make themselves being missed.
Happy new year, beautiful belle.
(never stop writing, pls)

Tabs A. Geek said...

Catcher in the Rye is a book I still haven't read. It's on my reading list for this year, however.

Happy New Year, Belle, and thank you for all the beautiful words, imagery and insights into your life that you have provided us with.

Anonymous said...

I went to the library to get Catcher in the Rye today, but it was closed for the New Year.

sanchez said...

Oh Belle, I love your resolutions. Especially the letters. they sounds lovely.

I read catcher in the rye this year, on a plane.
it was about the same time my heart broke.

I cried reading it. sometimes I feel like I shouldn't, because so many people say that holden is spoilt, and to be honest, maybe he is.
but that feeling of disappearing, and the solution to keep walking until you can't possibly move.

well thats something so fucking familiar.

Anonymous said...

yes, lets cry it out. does anything really change over new years?

Lund3on said...

You know, funny you say that you're deathly affraid of phones.. in some ways you can say I am too. It's weird. I really don't like answering it and I rarely ever return phonecalls. it's not diagnosed, but I wouldn't be surprised if it escalated into a full blown phobia. I think I'm affraid to hang out with people and I'm affraid of saying no. Anyway, You have a friend here in the states! Stay beautiful! Happy New Year


Anonymous said...

your blog is really great!
i hope you had a wonderful 2010 and a great new year!
thanks so much for your sweet comment, it means the world!
come back and visit COSMICaroline as looks get revamped and there's a new photographer coming soon! happy new year from me to you!


Jade Bailey said...

I love your new year resolutions darling belle, and I will definitely be wanting one of those letters when you're up for writing it! Did I mention how beautiful you look in your new facebook photos?
Lots of love x

The Boy Named Crow said...

The cars zoomed by, brakes screeched all over the place, his parents paid no attention to him, and he kept on walking next to the curb and singing ' If a body catch a body coming through the rye.' It made me feel better. It made me feel not so depressed any more.

Sophia said...

I love your artistic writing. I would love a letter! Happy new year darling. xo