Thursday, September 8

Less than zero





When he shut the door behind him five hours ago (or was it ten? Ive lost count) and walked out of the same apartment as he have walked out of so many times before it didn't hurt as much as I though it would. Father figure Frank never promised to stay very long. He never makes promises he can't keep.

It didn't hurt when the door hit the doorframe, the sound didn't create a big hole in my guts as it has before.

Because this time I was prepared.

Last night, after dinner we sat down in the library to talk. I thought he would ask me to come with him, I had already mentally packed my bags. Instead he made it about Eva.
- She's trouble
-She's a blessing, F!

I mixed Tramadol with gin, covered up the bad taste with plum wine and went numb in an instant.

So when he shut the door behind him, it didn't hurt.

61 comments:

Antonio Cerro said...

Great photos!

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Ellie said...

You are so gorgeous. I love these photos

-Ellie

naomemandeflores said...

Love your writing! And that last pic is amazing!


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Exótica said...

gorgeous pictures <333

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mazzy may said...

great last line...

ellie said...

Figuring it out is never easy. Cool photos.

Isquisofrenia said...

oh no im not anymore ahhaha i was

Francesca Della Valle said...

thanks for the comment on my blog!
lovely post and cool photos
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Mónica C. Welton said...

the first pic is great!


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Natasha said...

Tramadol & Gin... Have you experienced dizziness and drowsiness to bizarre behavior (whatever that may be)?

Noémie said...

Love your picures!
You're a crazy girl and that's nice ;)
Thanks for your comment on my blog!
I'm following you!
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crazy pig said...

If there's a drink I hate, it's definitely gin. I would have to drink a lot of wine to cover it :D

And I saw your photos from the older article were taken by Pneumonia... it means you know each other? Because I just said to myself that your blogs are quite similar in some point...

/btw, thank you very much :)

Beckerman Girls said...

These pics are sooo cool!!! Just love love them! The black and white pics are incredible!
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Joel said...

the way you write is really interesting! Loving your blog :)

julia.a said...

amazing pictures :) :)

Francesca Felix said...

these photos are beautiful! and you write beautifully as well
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Bonnie said...

I love the way that you write. The pictures really complement the story.

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Christina said...

SV: He sure is!:)

deppa said...

Great pictures, I love the light and the effects.

See you :)

Lenara said...

Hey,

great blog defiantly following you.

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The Desert Fox said...

gorgeous and that is a beautiful text. the pictures tell all.

xx

Chasing Dreams said...

Great photos and i love your style!

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Francesca R said...

You write very weel! And I love these pictures!
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Francesca R said...

You write very weel! And I love these pictures!
Xx
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dimitri said...

Great blog !
Love your pictures, and this post of course.

JUST ME said...

Your tales are so Gothic, and the pictures are too. I'm sure you're working on a novel. If you're not, I'll be mad.

Beautiful and sad in every way.

India said...

nice pics!

Loulou said...

if i return, sweet belle, will you visit?

it's so awfully sickening sweet this tramadol liquid. it would be even more sickening to say i am worried about you.

but i - care.


(aw...sth went weird with blogger when i took the blog down temporarily, guess we have to re-follow each other again)

Loulou said...

our worlds are urban versions of twin peaks, darling, aren't they?

<3

Kristie said...

Great writing, and love the photos. :)

ediot said...

i like the shots.
but i get a bit scared by your texts.
i hope this isn't a true story.
x

Anonymous said...

you're really fat, you know that?

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Angie said...

Great pics...Love them all...:) following u.:D
follow me back?
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Jennifer Fabulous said...

These photos are art, especially the first one.

Love your writing as well. :)

C said...

Over time, do we get used to the sound of a door hitting the frame?

Antonia said...

Big big like for the pics!!^^

See ya! ;)


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Charlottka said...

Beautiful, very climatic photos! Your blog is one of great inspiration:)

weasel said...

Perfect pictures!

BeSugarandSpice said...

Great pics!!
Kisses!

David Diaz said...

That first photo is my favorite! :D

Have a Good Day!

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ivy said...

Such great writing. Lovely pics too.

Emily Anne said...

your photos are always so stunning and gorgeous <3

MarieAntoinette said...

Great photos, i love your hairstyle.!

Angela Alvarez said...

great photos
loved the post!! :D
xx
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Wida said...

Beautiful. That is all.


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Sandra Leiva said...

Beautiful pictures and thanks for your comment!
Would you like to follow each other? <3

Gianella Peralta said...

Such expressive photos! And the text is really incredible :) Following you now. Hope you could follow back :)

cherie said...

gorgeous girl.... :)

sassycasual said...

This is yet another solid proof that you can't really make a conversation in a library. :D
You should've fix a Tramadol drink for a FFF. :)

Anyway... what kind of a man makes that kind of a statement for a bf?
When he said - E is trouble, didn't you hear a ringing in the ear - you're trouble...

We are our friends... well most of the time. :)

Mariel Villanueva said...

Thank you for the blog comment.

I started reading and could not stop. Totally intrigued.

♥beauxs mom said...

Beautiful pictures...

Loulou said...

<3

juliet said...

"I had already mentally packed my bags." - great sentence, so useable in lots of situation - succint!
and good photos of course
:)

Leather & Lace said...

beautiful photos beautiful words!
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Bad Joan said...

Great photos, love the black and white!

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Mary ♥ Mur said...


oooh. love your blog so much!!
And I love this post really.)

Can you answer on my question?

What is your favorite place on earth and why?
It s really intresting for me, becaurse I love travaling and photo.)

Yajaira said...

love black and white photos
loving the mask

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Soul Knight said...

why do we always close our eyes, or are you just dreaming?

Diamonddigger said...

ahhh, i love your writings...beautiful. your blog is very special Diana x

Tabs A. Geek said...

Beautiful photos again. I hope it hurt FFF to walk away...